I started looking at what happiness was , what unhappiness was , what depression was . And it led me down a path where very slowly but surely I became happier and happier over time . I made lots of different choices during that period of time .
And I began at that time to do a different kind of research . I started looking at what happiness was , what unhappiness was , what depression was . And it led me down a path where very slowly but surely I became happier and happier over time .
At least not right away . As I got older , I just became more and more unhappy . I became so unhappy that I decided I was gonna research the ways to kill myself .
And uh I had gone on to a great college and had a college scholarship , full ride , went on to work for a consulting company , made great money at two beautiful German cars . Um So in all ways , my life was phenomenal on the outside , but on the inside , I was really deeply and truly unhappy . And so as I dug this knife into my wrist , despite none of that changing , I felt the most unlimited peace and unconditional happiness and limitless love that I had ever experienced in my life .
And that led me surprisingly enough to a modeling and acting career and I enjoyed for about 10 years . And that led me to even writing a book , Happiness from the inside out about that experience and about some of the clients that I began taking on . Um because as I was putting myself through business school and paying for it with all the entertainment jobs and uh TV shows , I uh started having more and more conversations with people in the entertainment field and in everyday life who wanted to be happy too .
