Like what got you to be interested in this unhappiness ? It was unhappiness and suffering I think , which is the case . Probably for most of us , I remember being unhappy and anxious and self loathing from the very beginning of my life .
They don't energize you . They make you feel maybe discouraged or less happy to be alive . You want to do everything you can to outsource delegate , reduce , eliminate automate or regulate all the valleys are deserts .
It was unhappiness and suffering I think , which is the case . Probably for most of us , I remember being unhappy and anxious and self loathing from the very beginning of my life . I always thought I would grow out of it , you know , you think ?
The first thing I'm not alone here . There's lots of folks that feel depressed and suicidal and anxious and stressed and are self loathing . And , you know , I knew enough to know that I didn't know very much and that I could learn from smarter people that maybe had studied this their entire lives .
And of course , that didn't happen , at least not right away and it only got worse . So it eventually grew into a deep dark depression and then that eventually led to suicidal ideation , which , um , went on for a solid two decades . And I used to think about suicide dozens of times a day more than I thought about anything else , you know .
