At least not right away . And as I got older , my depression only deepened and the suicidal ideation only increased so much . So I get to the point where it was nearly impossible for me to get through a day , really get through an hour without thinking about and wanting to kill myself .
I , my story started really with suicide and depression . I was deeply depressed . I remember being depressed at four or five years of age .
I was deeply depressed . I remember being depressed at four or five years of age . Quite honestly , I couldn't quite describe it then of course .
You know , you're right at the age of four or five , I didn't have the language really much for anything . Um , and I certainly didn't know what depression was . I just knew that I hated being in my own skin .
So I , I there's two things that I'm thinking about at this moment . One of those is you , you were able to recognize the depression at a very early age . And I , I don't know if you had the language to be able to articulate it yet .
