And so that was ultimately what it was for me . And I think ultimately for most people , if you dive deep enough , you'll find that um there's often overthinking over analysis um that leads or lends itself to depression and helplessness and even suicidal . Yeah .
My nervous system was always felt like it was wired pretty high . Um But ultimately , at the end of the day , what it really was was an obsessive compulsive thinking and over analytical mind that just made a problem out of everything and really good at solving problems was also really good at finding problems and creating problems . So at the end of the game is really over .
It's my true nature , it's our true nature and sometimes you're aware of it . Sometimes you're not the only thing that really ever gets in the way of it is thoughts and the associated feelings uh that we have . And so happiness is never out of reach .
It's again , it's a gift and a curse , right ? Because of the perfectionism , you operate with a certain level of excellence , but at the same time , you , you still feel inadequate , even though you're doing exceptionally well , you just nailed it . That's absolutely right .
Yeah . So many things , you know , um really one thing ultimately , but it was , you know , sort of perfectionism . I was an empath , you know , I had an incredibly loving supportive family .
