I don't have a bunch of data behind me , but I have these experiences which have been profound , just the elephant in the room . I just have to ask uh I think we all know somebody struggling with some kind of an addiction for you if you could not to get too personal . But like , what was that moment for you that you started looking up and just kept going up and just never looked back .
And um yeah , yeah . So addiction is a big part of my story and I'm a big fan of truth and authenticity . I think uh we lose so many people because they're afraid to talk about it .
Yeah . I think with all addiction there's a while there's a period of time it works . Right .
Um So , you know , I basically failed every test to try to control it on my own . And then when I went into rehab , I learned about this thing , we talk about Alcoholics anonymous . I'll just name it , which is this , it's this allergy , meaning I'm different from other people .
What I just take , you know . Um , and so that's what happened , you know , by the time I got into rehab and I was open to treatment , I knew that I had tried every imaginable way to control what I was doing and it was a miserable failure and it wasn't fun anymore . You know , the first days I'll be honest , the first days I got into math , it was me and some buddies doing drum machines and playing and painting all night .
