Um , you know , and I wanted to make people's lives better . Um , I just didn't know that this purpose of mine was hidden within this really painful problem that I was experiencing called unhappiness . Yeah .
Didn't see them too well on the camera there . But I had the most unexpected , unpredictable inexplicable experience , which is that for no good reason without anything in my external conditions or circumstances changing , meaning I had a pretty good life objectively speaking , but I just felt miserable on the inside , despite it all in this moment of digging the knife into my wrist , I felt real joy and a sense of well being and it like limitless love that I had really never experienced before in quite that way . And so at that moment , I thought , you know , I'm gonna put off the suicide thing for just a couple of minutes .
I thought that would happen . Maybe I'd make some friends and eventually I just grow out of this unhappiness . But actually , I just became more and more depressed .
So I'm the least likely person probably in the world to be a happiness coach because I struggle with happiness for so long . I mean , I feel like I was born an extraordinarily unhappy kid . I was stressed out and anxious and self loathing and self hating and insecure for as long as I can remember .
Please tell me , well , I have to say that most of my life , I've learned things the hard way Claire . So I'm the least likely person probably in the world to be a happiness coach because I struggle with happiness for so long . I mean , I feel like I was born an extraordinarily unhappy kid .
