And I was like , I actually do like myself . There are things about myself that I feel proud about or I appreciate . And then all of a sudden I was like , oh , people seem to be very kind to towards me and very appreciative of me .
Like you're right . That , that's the other sort of challenging opportunity is to recognize sort of the filters that we have on our own eyes and perception of the world and how we often just are getting back precisely obviously what we're putting out . But sometimes we're not even , it's not even that sometimes we just think we're getting back what we're putting , right ?
I should learn to love those things about myself and it was impossible , right ? Like then I was like , let me just focus on the things that I genuinely and easily like or appreciate about myself . And I did that long enough that when you look back at the things that you think are unlovable , suddenly even they look lovable .
Like why would I do that to them because oh to benefit myself just to leave this earth when I would be leaving behind all these amazing people who believed in me and you could be alone and have no family . But still like you made a difference in someone's life and think about it that way where like , so I , I use gratitude starting and ending every day and then um as soon as I look at myself and I start wanting to pick apart my parents or something , um I will focus on qualities that I like about myself . So I'll say , ok , like this might not be what you want right now , but you have this or like , but this is ok .
I think it makes or breaks a person because I've met a lot of very physically attractive people in my life and then I got to know them and was like , uh , there's like , not much else there but um , I think that everyone feels ugly sometimes , like , no matter what you look like or like what you do . And um , I think like , finding what makes you unique and owning it because I used to want to fit in so bad . I wanted to be cool .
